screwed up everything=.=

omg...life is HECTIC nowadays...so many things to do, yet NOTHING is done, n i have no idea how to do any of it!shit man...i'm kinda lost d...haih..

so, forgive me to type an emo post(1st n last time i hope)...aiks...because, it SUCKS to admit, despite how i disagree with emo ppl, that i'm emo too...sometimes larrr...haih...dis computer sucks because i have wanted to post this for sooo long but onli can do so today because it was spoilt AGAIN n was repaired n brought back just yesterday...almost make me explode with emotions...i seemed to have screwed up EVERYTHING...like everything'll be better without me...yishh...

how i screwed up everything??
1.i screwed up pmo
-attendance kinda bad..de committees kinda mad...at least 1
-have to ponteng tomorrow again, due to merah
-lost my point of practising
-pmo shirts not arrived yet
-account not done
-fees not collected still...(YOU BETTER PAY ME IF YOU HAVEN'T DO SO, I'M WARNING U!!)

2.i screwed up merah
-wat the hell, i'm de head of deco
-no idea how its done
-they'll be better off without me
-can't contribute much because of daily choir practices
-onli can contribute de glue i cooked
-fine, aunt may cooked it
-glue turned out to be too diluted dis time, n has a bad odour =.=

3.screwed up my health
-wat the hell, constantly sick
-coughing , flue
-as if i dun have better things to do than falling sick
-costant tiredness
-bad temper
-can't sing properly in choir
-used up many many many tissues
-always have to look for tissues
-not enuf tissues
-FREAKINGLY ANNOYING

4.screwed up my studies
-missed class for almost 3 whole weeks
-another week to go
-homework not done
-more projects to be done
-no time to revise
-missed tuition
-sleep in tuition
-can't understand a thing in chemistry
-can't catch up
-poorly left behind
-exam coming again

5.screwed up my friendships
-bad tempered
-sick
-tired
-i'm ABSENT MINDED
-i'm constantly day dreaming
-whatever
-no longer share things with them, either too bz or lost interest
-NOR they share things with me
-i'm ANNOYING
-i complain a lot
-i'm always unsatisfied with things
-i'm irritating
-i'm noisy
-i repeat things constantly
-i NAG a lot
-i'm angry
-i'm frustrated
-i'm emo
-i have a problem
-i'm impatient
-i shud just shut up
-my onli solution is to take deep breaths...aiks
-n to blog of coz
-i'm lost...

6.screwed up my 'facade'
-facade is sth fake n cruel yet NECESSARY
-i'm WEAK at it
-i show all my emotions on my face
-ppl c through me easily
-ppl can tel when there's sth wrong in my mind
-which is bad, because they'll just take it as i'm being emo
-i speak my mind too often
-i look blank when i'm thinking
-can't control my feelings
-d onli place where i can look normal is in choir, coz i have singing to distract me n to cheer me up
-in elsewhere, i'm vulnerable....

7.screwed up prefects
-always did so anyway
-just dat on top of the list i back out from the marching during sports day in a very unwise n 'noisy' way
-which screwed up my image
-he was being irreasonable anw
-as if i care
-maybe i do
-but whatever

onli thing i HAVEN'T screw up is choir i think...n most likely ill screw it up as well in near future...luck just won't work well with me...

p/s:i was not emo today, dis post suppose to be typed last week, or at least yesterday...dun ask me if i'm fine, coz i'm perfectly fine... fine, maybe u won't ask me, i'm juz perasan.



pp/s:oh ya, we got 3rd place in choir competition.not a good result but i felt quite fine with it.
oh. n if u're a choir member from DJ, or even a student from DJ, kindly pls WATCH OUT, we'll meet again in near future, during choral festival, we beg ur pardon if we accidentally-on-purpose beat U in the competition. til we meet again=]

mr.mushroom

FINALLY able to post a photo of our mushroom project!!! i got so much trouble just to get this potos leh coz i brought camera to skul for 3 days n could not even find a minute to snap a photo of my mushroom so in the end i have to get the photo from else n de whole thing is kinda stupid but at least i got the god damn photos from my juniors in the end.ha.ha.ha.


n...here they are!!!!!i'm proud to present u our 1 n onli giant mushroom stationary keeper!!!! 

awwwww....isn't is CUTE?????


GIANT mushroom n baby mushroom...


wat??u think its just an ORDINARY mushroom model???well think again!!it has BUILT-IN cabinet in it...my idea...haha...amazing right???





oh fine...de credit goes to hao jian..as he is the 1 who used a industrial saw to cut open the iron milk powder container AND the 1 who made the built-in cabinet AND the 1 who provided his unwanted carpet for us to make the 'grassy' ground AND the 1 who made the AMAZING cabinet door...he had to drill 10 HOLES on the tin just to make the door....

well...at least i provided the milk powder tin...aiks...n make the GIANT mushroom head...n colour it...n gave the idea of using 1 cent coins to make the pavement on the 'grass'...so i'll have some credits oso right???haha...

n of coz credits to yi yan who made the pencil holder...n the mini mushroom (the mini mushroom head can be removed to put things inside the mushroom...haha)..n the cottage for putting memo pads..

n thxs to wen yan for the instrument pictures n the fences made of toothpicks n colouring n the sweet smile n the tissue pasting of coz...

n chun hoe who so eagerly volenteered to help...n provided the hair dryer to dry u the gums...n enjoyed too much using or playing with my hot glue gun until all the wax are used up...

n wen hao who provided sooooo many cardboards...n brushes n colours n crazy funny lame jokes n comments...haha...

last but not least xue ying who help in the dirty n sticky tissue pasting process...

all of us took part in the colouring of the mushroom...

oh ya...thxs to all pmo members who helped by giving constructive comments n even help out a lot in the colouring...

oh...n my dad who gave me de idea to use kuali as the mould to make the mushroom head...hahaha...

well done everyone!!!


p/s:heard that we got the second place...haha...kelab kreatif got 1st of course...with their shiny balck coz from the zodiac...so cool...make ours look quite...childish...aiks...whatever...they're kelab KREATIF ma...wheras we are hua yue members...c??we don't onli play instruments...we can draw n colour n make things too!!!!wakakaka....we are soooo artistic!!!




chaoz~

MuShRoOm PrOjEcT

hee...wondering wat de hell is de 'mushroom' project i mentioned in my previous post??lol...i'll explain it la...it saved me from further stress of that day...so its still a happy ending for my 'stress day' loo...haha

mushroom project is actually a project organised by lembaga kitar semula...just dat its actual name is not 'mushroom project' la...its called 'ciptaan kita semula'...a competition organised to allow us to use our imagination n creativity to design a model using recycable or uwanted materials...except no1 really bother it though its compulsory for each club to hand in 1 project...despite dat, we pmo find de project really fun n took it veryu seriously...thxs to my 'brilliant' idea...we decided to make a mushroom model...a GIANT mushroom which we can use it as a rack...thus the name of 'mushroom project' is born...lol...

however...it turn out dat our 'mushroom project' is kinda successful...lol...make me realise such CUTE form3 juniors i have...haha...n most importantly, make me realise how much i loved colouring...never colour anything since form4...miss it...haha...lastly, instantly relieve all my stress of the day...just sit back n enjoy the bright colours i was putting on the mushroom...listening to the form3's lame n small arguments...joking about...so relaxing n stress relieving...haha...was happy to c many other juniors who are eager to help too...they're attracted by the GIANT mushroom's cute n short size...all wanting to join us in the colouring job....so, the colouring of the mushroom was done in a short while...n only small details are left to be done tomorrow...yea~~~

hmmm...though dis mushroom project used up a lot of my precious time...its never a waste of time...because i get to noe my juniors much better...n i get to revive my passion for artcraft, finally...this is one golden chance that i felt lucky i haven't missed=]


p/s:i'll take photo of the GIANT mushroom tomorrow...then u'll c the final outcome of our work...haha

stress=.=

so...today, i was very stress...yup...exam is JUST over...n i'm already stress.y???stupid la...so many projects...

reasons i was stressed up today...(pls dun laugh...T.T...i noe i'm very weak...haih)

1.chem project due dis friday(though i almot done it)
2.moral project due dis friday(ditto)
3.mushroom project due dis friday
4.weather too hot
5.not enough sleep
6.too tired
7.bcoz  went to do class page right after saturday's pmo practice, stayed up late, continue doing class page on sunday
8.skul on monday, mushroom project after dat, tuition after dat, tutoring at night
9.skul on tues, tuition til 5 sth after dat, tuition at night
10.all tiredness accumulated until today
11.photo shooting, hot sun.
12.rushing STUPID chem workbook all day,copy copy n copy...
13.CONFUSING chem lesson...teacher speeding, giving wrong information,can't catch up with de lesson...T.T
14.SUPER SPEEDING english lesson...(its de last lesson, i'm totally worn up...aiks)
15.supid sivik hw?!!!!wat de hell...yishhh...
16.walk out from skul after skul dismissed under hot sun, carrying bag n clothes n shoes n books n file n GIANT MUSHRROM...hand aching...exhausted again
17.super hot weather...sleepy n sweaty state
18.counting on sleeping after lunch at home...hoping my transport'll reach soon n i can finally rest...
19.wait n wait but no1 came
20.walk back to skul with all my things, including GIANT MUSHROOM,hand aching
21.saw my fren who was suppose to fetch me home
22.fren told me dat she 4got to tel me dat she's staying back after skul today...means i have to stay back in skul til 4.30pm...
23.that was the last straw
24.dream bubble of taking nice sweet nap at home burst...T.T
25.dream bubble of finally catching up all hw n projects n revision of lessons BURST...
26.frustrated n exhausted n HUNGRY
27.finally BROKE DOWN...gave my fren a shock...aiks...
28.a number of ppl saw me T.T ...gave them a shock too

hmph...sorry lo, i noe its nth to stress or cry about...but still...hmph...spm year...stress...aiks...memang weak la me...haih...scare this'll be de 1st of few time me breaking down b4 de actual spm...(choi!!!touch wood=.= )i'll be able to overcome de la...must be strong enuf=] most important thing is sufficient sleep...aiks...

CHS Choir....lalalala~~~~

yea~dis school holiday, i spent my days to go for choir practices....3 whole days...exhausted...


but guess wat???dis is the best practice i've ever been in ALL my 4 years in choir club...yup!!!thxs to de well-planned schedule by the music masters...n de well-organised system...they've put a lot effort in it...n i'm sure its not wasted...haha...i think dis year's choir system is de best i've seen in my 4 years...systematic...n also effective...well done,committees!!yea!!!!n of course thxs to super cool miss susawna....ALL her words are sooooo INSPIRING!!!i've learnt a lot...so beneficial...u can never get tired of her talking...haha...many thxs to all of u....haha....

seriously...never seen so many people coming for practice...in all my 4 years as a choir mbr...plus its a school holiday!!!wow...choir become yeng d...haha...n de sweet cute little juniors...lol...dunno y most of them thought i'm in form 2=.= never noe that i'm almost de oldest in choir adi la...gonna gradute soon...aiks...anw, most of the juniors, both old n new ones, are VERY eager to learn...good loo...so long din c such ADORABLE juniors d....haha...looovvvveeeee them lots...muakss!!i'm sure they'll lead choir well in future...as long as they have their heart in choir...haha...

hmmm....choir practices these few days are simply ENJOYABLE, RELAXING yet INSPIRING...nvr regret for goin...even though its tiring...AND have to skip some 'events'...but whatever...haha...i really get to feel the 'family feel' in choir now...except dat i'm like a parent there...lol...old senior adi ma...haha..oh...n for alto group members...especially those who think that they are placed in alto because they are not as high standard as the sapranos...never think alto is just a background for all the melodies..we are the support for the melody...or else the melody'll simply be boring without us...wahahahahaha...c???alto is very important leh...i looovvveee alto....double muakss....

for those who are facing serious stress problems, i strongly recommend u to join choir...trust me, i think choir is the ONLY society where u can relieve all your stresses, sit back n relaxs a peace of mind, while sing your souls out of u...until u have all those problems, whatever pressure n headaches out of ur head...i guarantee u'll feel much better in no time...

hmmm...suddenly have the confidence that choir might get into national level tim....aiks...if we keep up to this passion n hardworkship anw....lalala....my last year leh...hope can do best looo...
THIS IS THE MOMENT OF THEM ALLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!

yea~choir holiday.....haha...



do

mi

so

do!!!!

haha..





chaoz~

Dear me,

Here's a piece of advice from me.

Please learn to CHILL in future.

yup...chill. i noe exam is around the corner... fine, exam is WITHIN A WEEK...yishh...but still, chill!!! phew...i must learn to control myself, stop bein so 'aggressive' ,(aiks...think dis word is kinda over=.=) talk slower, and CALM DOWN...haih....chill man!! T.T
if i adi act like this by now, what will i be during exam??people'll seriously think i'm insane!!
sorry, dear friends, if i'm driving u guys crazy...aiks...i have to learn to relax more=.=

if u are feeling stress too, pls follow my lead-
    
   breath in
 
         breath out
         
                      BREATH IN
       
                                      BREATH OUT

feeling better???haha....good=]


yours faithfully,


me
p/s: pray hard all of us'll survive after the BIG exam...aiks...good luck=] 

my big lesson

Great, my modem is faulty just when I need to get on9…
So I type this in Microsoft word at 25th of feb, not the day I posted this…

So, today I got my big lesson. I learn NOT TO MIND OTHERS BUSINESS….yish…coz some ppl just don’t appreciate it!! there’s a dog eat dog world out there, n if u don’t fit in, u’re just disqualified from the big game…this world is all about reality, n REALITY IS CRUEL, just get over with it already!!!

So, what made me learnt this lesson today?? no, I’m NOT going to talk about the particular case right here. Instead, I going to tell a story bout 2 stupid cats which is similar to my case in reality….so dis is the story, invented by me, copyrighted!!

“ One day, there’s many cats looking for food on the street, suddenly, a fish seller poured a pail of unwanted fish heads on the road…Oo~ FISH HEADS~~~~ All the cats are sooo excited…they exclaimed: “hey!!!! FISSSHHHH!!!!! MEEOOOWWW!!!!!”

So, all of them rush to the front to eat the fish heads, enjoying themselves, having a good time. Only one cat, a skinny one (stupid cat 1), stayed behind, looking at all the other cats in a very disapproving way…although he is very hungry, he just sit there, looking upset n frustrated…

a BLACK cat among the other cats (stupid cat 2) felt curious, it doesn’t understand why that skinny cat wouldn’t eat…so, it stopped eating n confront the skinny cat, “hey, skinny, y don’t u eat??? its fish!!! come on!!! meow!!!”

The frustrated skinny cat finally had his chance to let out his feelings, n he isn’t going to let go of the golden opportunity. So, the skinny cat raise his voice, “I’m a polite cat, I don’t fight over food with others. I queue up n wait for my turn.”

Poor blacky still does not get it, she ask, “why? We are stray cats, we aren’t suppose to be polite, we follow our instincts. When we’re hungry, we eat.”

Skinny replied, “no, polite is a good quality, didn’t u guys no that??I’m not going to change just because others is not like that. YOU cats should learn from me, I’m just following the rules!”

Blacky: “erm…of coz I know polite is a good quality. But, we are CATS. All cats act like that. U can’t change anybody. U just have to fit in. if not, u’re going to starve to death!”

Skinny: “ I’m not wrong!!! U guys SHOULD act good, and not fight over food like dat!!! You guys SHOULD queue up like me, n divide the food equally among us n eat in a proper manner!!!”

Blacky: “ there’s nothing bout SHOULD or SHOULD NOT do something…its just DO or NOT DO something…IN ORDER TO SURVIVE, we cats just eat food when we see them!”

Skinny wouldn’t listen, he got so frustrated n started MEOW-ING IN HIGH FREQUENCY, poor blacky who tried to convince him also began to meow even louder. Finally, blacky got BITTEN by angry skinny n got hurt…Annoyed, blacky left the cats with an empty stomach and an injury on the tail ...

Later, blacky asked the others: “ why aren’t u all trying to get him to eat the fish heads with us???” they just laughed, remembering the particular day when two stupid cats fighting n meow-ing with each other OVER PARTICULARLY NOTHING IMPORTANT…one of the cats answered: “we’ve gave up on him larr…y bother so much??”

Poor blacky learnt a lesson to only mind her own business in future n shut up…while skinny still don’t get y ALL cats act this way and didn’t realize its he himself that should be changed….

-the end-



Yup, the stupid blacky is me =.=

Minds people’s business and got shouted AND got laughed by people AND ENDED UP WITH A VERY BAD MOOD…when I actually can avoid all of this nonsense=.=

Some people just don’t get it…it’s a DOG EAT DOG WORLD out there…so we have to ACT SMART, sometimes ACT NOOB, just like the other cats, keep your thoughts to yourself and u’ll live happily ever after….sometimes it seems selfish but it’s the only route to survive!!

DON’T CARE SO MUCH n u won’t get into trouble...

MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS

REALITY IS CRUEL!!!!

THE WORLD DOESN’T CHANGE, U CHANGE TO FIT THE WORLD!!!!



p/s:
Moral value of the story : don’t learn the two stupid cats. One which is stubborn and unappreciative…while one which is a BUSYBODY!!!!



chaoz~